Being in love is different from knowing you are in love the big difference is that there is something you can do about it
But the other is that there is absolutely nothing you can do about it, which is a shame, seeing the fact that you get ill with one and you just feel fine with the other and there is a great sense of absence and frustration between you and your mind. First it starts with you separating your mind from your body, then having a useless debate about who is right and who is wrong, the result always turns out to be, your mind is always right and you are wrong, but that is still not the problem do you know why?. Ok first you have decided that you should say how you feel be it good or bad, you practice for hours in front of a mirror and with each practice run you come closer to your point and never seem to get there except for the one in a million chances that you get, and when you miss that, there goes your lottery ticket for the 5 million pounds lottery draw that afternoon.
Don't loose hope yet the world has not ended (yet), so you get back on that crazy horse called love and ride into a bush because there was never a sunset to ride into. I can see that you have lost all faith and all determination for the will to live plus the fact that you can tell the one who loves you, shows that there was never a cheese on your crackers in the first place, realising that what you have been eating is not oyster it is the bullshit that you have been feed when you were told you were in love. The most interesting thing is that after the revelation of love doesn't exist and you are alone in this love forsaken world, it will be too late to say sorry and you will be all alone again. There goes the end of one disaster and the beginning another disaster - something that is meant to be good and existing called adulthood.

Signin out
John

A NEW DAY
First sightings at the door make me blush
First words hi my blood rush
Fever fear hope is nothing but a must
Your attitude towards me is unintentional
But you swayed with elegance and beauty
The sexiness of your movement sparked an indirect conversation between hearts
But I an not about to say the wrongs just to
end this ultimate connection between u and I
What's u mane with a kiss
Makes a beginning that is worth a start
My name in return compliments the smile
Now I can take a step closer
And hope it does not get any colder
Cos I saw frozen once and I hope
This is not a déjà vu
But this seem too good to be true
But I know it is not too good to be true
It is true you feel the same way
Those three words make it so
Is this what I have been waiting for?
Limitations are out of the question
Over expectations used to run the show
Very small ideas are make belief
Energy consumption start to make sense
You can't stop the feeling
Over excitement looses control
Ultra impulsive asks question.
If I am to begin to say how I am feeling at this point
Sleepless night might just do fine
What to say is another word
What to do is another action
Thinking of the future is another though
Words, actions, and though
Three things that are a code of life
If I was to say you are the one I want, and you make me whole
If I was to buy you a dozen roses on your birthday or even today and give you a kiss
The future plans in my head are
Already set in motion
I want to get to know you
Say the right words to you
Treat you are supposed to be treated
Make you smile all day long
Give you kisses and cuddles, cry when you cry, laugh when you laugh
Carry you when you are down
Sing when you are bored; find you when you are lost, make you feel my heat
When you are cold
Provide a cooler when it heats up